NO, I will NOT give you a Tarot reading! :-) But ... ever considered to use a deck of Tarot Cards for personal development reasons? I have personally chosen Alister Crowley's Tarot and I found it to be a really amazing learning tool that offers many important initiations (of awareness) along one's own heros journey.
To gained understanding of the four elements, the manifestation process through the Jacob's Ladder and the numerous symbols, pictures and archetypes that are proposed for your own contemplation in regards to any subject that you want to resolve or improve will be worth ta thousand times over the investment.
So I invite you to get yourself a deck of Alister Crowley cards, and some corresponding literature for your own studies at home during the commitment stage, and I will coach you along your questions via your unique interpretations of your cards.
Be certain that those who seek miracles, are those that find them.